Monday, 11 October 2010

The return of the feeder...

Time: 20.47
Calories: oh, millions.
Mood: pissed off.

Hi Reader!

I have a headache, my hands stink of vomit, and I have a deep feeling of self loathing? Guess who's back. After a successful two day fast, then two days of getting away with eating nothing but some veg, the feeder (ie. my boyfriend) has returned in full force. So today Ana has given way to Mia. I havn't binged by bulimic standards but i have by my own. Tuna sandwich, crisps, some carrot. Eugh i feel RANK. And I STILL have to have my stirfry dinner - luckily i can make it so no oil tah just one cal. GOD. I'm so depressed. I'm chuffed to have him home i really am but i was really loving the ana and it was starting to make a real difference to my body. My man was freaking out about my rib and hip bones which was so devine i almost melted.


Im going to post some more thinspo tomorrow or wednesday when hopefully ill feel better and all fixed. I really hope iv not put weight back on.


Rant.Over.  Blog soon.


1 comment:

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